A lot has happened in the past one year. The good, the bad and the ugly. A rollercoaster ride indeed. I have done and become things I once hated or spoke against. Thankfully, I’m presently undoing and unbecoming some of these things. I have lost sight of my true identity. There were times I would stare at the mirror and couldn’t recognise who was staring back at me. Thankfully again, I’m recovering the sight of what I really am and what I look like. I have lost things. I have gained things. I have lost friendships and gained friendships.
I have achieved things. I have broken records. I have started things and abandoned them. I have picked up things I abandoned. All in all, what has really changed in the past year is that I’ve come to the end of myself. I have, in a way, ‘seen myself finish.’ I have acknowledged my weaknesses and this has made me less judgmental and more merciful to people. I am not quick to give my opinions on issues these days. The log in my eye is too heavy for me to be worrying about the speck in another person’s eye.
I think I’m in a good place now. I thank God. I unconsciously and consciously rely on this to keep going forward and not pull a Lot’s wife move:
“I’ve got God fighting for me. Devil, not today.
You already stole a lot from me and you got lots to pay.”
Yours in recovery,